Have you ever wished you could have a do-over? Perhaps you made a wrong decision, said something you wish you could take back, let go of something that you wish you had held onto, or held onto something when you should of let go...
I accomplished every one of the above in 2015. It was a year of drastic change, big moves, major decisions and lots of uncertainty. It is no surprise as I reflected as the year closed, I was left feeling caught in the tailwind of it all.
Being quite the spontaneous person despite my responsibilities, I often make quick decisions when something feels right; why waste time? We are not promised tomorrow and who wants to die asking "what if?" However sometimes, when I get ahead of myself and finally stop to look at where I stand, the reaction is... "WOW, God gave you guts of glory and the courage of a lion. You did it! NOW what are you going to do?"
My last blog post was written the week of Thanksgiving, and although I wish I could say it was my busy schedule that caused the silence, I can't. This time, my silence was because I did not know what to write, what to say... I was dealing with the bottled up emotions of having one HELL of a year. For the past several weeks I have been wrapped up in an emotional roller coaster trying to find myself again. I got lost last year... REALLY lost in the numbness of what was happening around me and kicked into survival mode. Only a few people knew what was going on, and even they did not know all that was happening. I tend to be private in these thunderstorms of emotion.
~Here's To A New Beginning~
So, here I am... sharing the first blog post of 2016. Ready to conquer, turning another page, writing another chapter, allowing the past to be the past and opening myself up for what the future has to bring. I am going into the new year single, once again, in a new state, after 17 years of being in Florida, and retired from the "hair chair"... a career that gave my kids and I a great life for 24 years. A lot of change for one year, but it's time to go after BIGGER dreams, to pursue something with even GREATER purpose, and live the next 10 years going after it like I never have.
I have a lot to accomplish, a lot of things I want to achieve, things I want to experience and I'll be honest and say that when I look ahead, the road is foggy... the clarity I am used to is gone. I am running ahead in FULL FAITH this time. I wish I knew the bible more... (I am slowly making my way through it) There must be a story where God led someone into a crazy scenario asking them to TRUST in Him. That is how I feel right now, in this very moment. Through the tears of fear I also feel excitement because I know that when we are brought to our knees, miracles happen. I am listening to every prompt, every word and will follow even when I am fearful...
I invite you to follow me on the continued journey... my next set of chapters
"GOING AFTER MY HAPPY ENDING"
Until next time....
PURSUE WHAT YOU HOPE FOR; LEAVE BEHIND WHAT YOU WISH TO FORGET....
I HOPE THAT YOU WILL:
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